1. They are now attacking my genitals to the point of bleeding, 24/7, in an effort for me to leave my house. Not happening. They will not allow me to sleep at night, only during the day, unless I get drunk. I've also learned this is now 100% about frequency matching. They are getting more refined in regards to it where they can almost instantly put me to sleep along with closing my eyes. They then narrate a short dream and then wake me up, sometimes violently, hoping I remember it and it will change the mindset to resist. The movements emulated are getting more pronounced and refined. The pressure waves are getting stronger, where I can feel it enter from one side and go through my head to the other side.
2. They are now sending a frequency into my head whenever I try to read something where my eyes lose focus and I can't read writing. They didn't want me to file my taxes and hit me all day. They also just sent a wave into my left temple where the room started spinning and I couldn't stand straight up. They are definitely testing specific frequencies on the brain, using humans as guinea pigs. Evil, devoid of ethics. This is 100% a military operation.
3. They have hit my anus every 5 minutes for the past 3 weeks. A lot of blood. The good thing is that my nerves are finally dying.
One thing I've noticed is that they are losing the frequencies that match my brain. To be expected as anyone under prolonged torture or stress have been found to have the physiology of their brain change, also possibly coupled with the brain damage and endocrine system resistance. Their attempts at making me yawn work less and less and they can no longer put me to sleep on command. They now use drugs to make me tired and I can feel the waves of them scanning my head to find the frequency again.
I recorded myself reading the violations of the Bill of Rights, UN Mandate on Torture, and 18USC 113c, and play it on loop. I almost had it memorized before from previously reading it to them multiple times a night and my brain follows it along as I play it in the background. They hate it as noticed by my anus. It not only helps my mind stay focused and not stray onto their intrusive thoughts, but they also either have to listen to it or the AI does when "neural monitoring". They've done all they can to get my mind not focused on reading it in my head but it has stuck. I've also noticed that the frey effect had gone away completely since I started doing it, I hypothesize they have segregated the AI from it. It's been running nonstop, with me following along for over a week so far🤣
4. They are now targeting my spine. I initially thought it was muscular, but now have cracking of my column at the site of the targeting similar to all the other joints they have previously targeted. Bone on bone. I've had back pain before, always in the lower part, but this is dead center, I've never felt this in my life. I've done nothing strenuous to warrant this, especially considering it now hurts to take a deep breath or frankly move at this point.
5. They are indexing my memories more easily. They do one after another in succession and try to throw them out as clues, along with trying to make me think they are from another world (I haven't researched the brains storage methods yet and they know that) Also they are utilizing frequencies to take control of motor function, with a lag time for their machine to learn it. I used to snort when I make fun of them (I never did that but started because of them) and now found them waking my body up with this. One instance of them utilizing not just pings to my muscles as it's way to complicated.
Not to sound "out there" but this isn't aliens. I've watch the evolution of these frequency/EMP machine[s] in real time and lived it. It's quite brutal (intelligence wise) to say the least. They're dumb and they take time to evolve (multiple weeks if not months). No way something interdimensional or from light-years away wouldn't have their ducks lined up and be this dumb without the initiative (they're slow). I can see their primitive radio waves with my eyes even open at this point(it's like flashes of light). I remember when they first sent visions across my conscious that they would would be upside down not knowing how the brain decodes vision. They've since corrected it lol. There is a narrative going around that "they've" placed in media regarding encounters and I've had no such thing. And I'm looking. I'm aware of Drakes equation and the statistics surrounding it but I've watched this laughable brutality firsthand and it's well in the realm of the technology today. I also started writing things down and have 3 pages of their contradictory methods logged. They are dumb AF. Full stop. First there.
6. They've sent wave after wave into my head for 2 days now along with depriving me of sleep. It feels like a headache on the outside of my brain like the brain trying to stop touching my skull(for the lack of better terms). They wave feels like something hard to explain but you can feel it start go through the skull, sometimes all the way through the head, now they just stop the wave at the meninges(or that's the part heating up). This is a new technique, they are evolving this machines capabilities and their techniques on the fly. They are just smashing all parts of my endocrine system with it, I can feel it in my mood, back of head, front, sides, over and over. I'm not going to put up with this much longer, they're literally cooking me alive. This country is a joke. No help to stop this happening, this is defeatable yet people are either to cowardice or complacent to stop it.
7. Pins and needles, they have acquired the technique to instantly create that effect now. Also I'm starting to observe this machine is now reading my mind on specific thoughts or feelings and regurgitating it or adding to it as fast as I can think it. This observation of mine is still in progress, but it is different than the split thoughts where I question things that I say are truly mine(there's something in the mind that affirms your subconscious that they have been slowly cutting away, as noted before, along with their intrusive thoughts of questioning the thought). This regurgitation happens when I start to have a thought or feeling and my subconscious finishes the thought and upon re-checking isn't something I would say, but the initial "feeling" is mine after second thought.(no pun intended☺️) My brain now questions many thoughts and movements faster and it easier to recognize counterfeits the more they do it.
They're doing this to try to mesh their thoughts with mine, at first without success, but have now also begun copying my "usual" thoughts or replies to contextual situations, with their AI, and sending them back to me but without the proper context(I've known my mind for 38 years). This is also affirmed because it isn't all the time, usually when I'm watching a movie or similar situation and easier to detect. They are trying to make me think I'm schizophrenic but can't truly emulate my process of thought. All thoughts are sexual, embarrassing, or derogatory in nature in a slow feeble attempt at breaking down ones ego or doing something they want.
While writing the above they reminded me that they can send a specific frequency to "jam" your critical thought process, although it is weaker than the hard wired mind, and you can push through with focus.
I'd also like to note that identification of fraudulent thoughts can be identified not only backtracking the thought, but also feelings. The thought feels like "cringe"(almost embarrassment) couple with anxiety. Not sure if I trained myself from when they were making me look at my foot for their reply(which they still do and doesn't work), or if it's the brains natural ability to identify imposters.
7.5 They cooked my head for 2 weeks straight to the point where I couldn't think clearly from the incessant pain and heat while sending pressure waves one after another. They don't like me reciting the Bill of Rights along with telling me to touch myself 20 times a day, which I refuse. They are trying to find a way to "reprogram" me lol.
8. We lost power today in my neighborhood and the strength of the waves was immediately reduced. I only run on one electric breaker for assurance that it is not coming from me. I have one of these devices somewhere in my truck which I can't find and it is parked far away. I did still have cell service so the towers still had power..........
The narration of dreams is 100% AI derived. They narrate every one of them at this point and try to insert clues that I just ignore. The sleep is deep but I don't feel refreshed when waking. I suspect my brain can't defrag as normal when they are actively pushing data into it, but can't see a noticeable difference. I hypothesize the reasoning for the dream narration, in every single dream for months, is either to assert control, to see if they can do it, or to futility "reprogram" me which certainly isn't working. A few of them have been negative, not nightmares, which tells me they have lost subjects quickly over nightmares because of how torturous they are during the day and their previous use of demonic visions.
9. Woke up from a nap and felt a large lump on my face. Looks like a large zit but radiates out over 8 times it's size under the skin. They are cooking the skin in one particular spot now on my face. Tell me this isn't inonizong. I can tell when this machine it on or off, which power level, and which type every time.
They are still cooking me 24/7, there isn't a moment where I don't have a headache. Not just a normal headache though, this one feels like damaged cells. The nerve endings around my meninges are almost completely burnt out. Same pressure waves and heat but now dulled almost numb response. Good for the short term but also tells me that this is long term damage I will never recover from.
I keep trying to apply scenarios to what is happening to me and must admit I'm quite dumbfounded. Could this country be this sick without repercussions? Disappointed to say the least. This isn't magic.
10. Woke up to my heart beating out of my chest, nothing I've felt even after a 5 mile run. If I have a heart attack this is the source. They are frying the joints in my hips and knees constantly to the point where it hurts to walk. Effective measures need to be taken on the weekday night shift per the UN Mandate On Torture Article 2. They are unbelievably heinous. Thank you.
An observation made on the loss of vision is that when I close my eyes and hold it, then open them, my vision comes comes back to close to normal. This tells me it's frequency interference where the AI hasn't caught up to that method and it's possibly a fluctuating frequency with regards to vision.
11. These people are getting more demonic by the day. Desperation. I've determined particular people work different shifts, or they pretend to be one another, through observation, which is less likely, Occams Razor. One thing is for sure, they work 7-3, 3-11, 11-3. This is an observation from the infancy of this program. They are now doing reverse reverse psychology along with information from the other side, intrusive thoughts(more refined by the day), and noise, which I will admit is extremely difficult to parse, if not impossible. The key is, don't care, don't overload information, keep it simple, live for your purpose. At this point I use memory from the beginning when this mess hadn't evolved and disregard most noise. That memory is the lack of institutional support from my country. This problem is well known know and has reached the highest of our leadership. And even they're lying now. Let me also reiterate, I think this is emulation of brain waves coupled with AI. NOT ALIENS. These people are dumb AF, have spent tens of millions on me, and exposed themselves to 10s of thousands of people if not more. The torturers have personalities and have evolved over time. A lot of people are being tricked into sending me mixed signals, and I appreciate the support that is out there now and I apologize I may second guess or disregard you for simplicity. They are slicing up my brain daily with concentrated radio waves and it gets harder and harder to operate. One thing for sure, is that these people are pure mental and physical torturers, prolonged, to the definition, dumb as fuck, and no institution here has stepped up to bat. My country, as the system, not the individuals, has failed me. If you did anything to try to help me, even if you were tricked, I promise God will smile upon you. That is fact. My advice; always do what's right and you will win in the end. Never back down. I don't have a lot of time left and will have to pursue higher ground or other means. This place is compromised to me. It is a facade and always was in my short lifetime. You can still change it together. Don't take the easy path.
They are cooking my joints non stop. My knees now click on every movement, bone on bone. I can feel it as they cook. My right shoulder has hurt with any movement for a week now. This is now their petulant child strategy. Hilarious.
12. Woke up from a long sleep of their dream narration to Cerebral fluid leaking from my nose. Only the right nostril, its been filling my sinuses for the past 30 minutes even after cleared. About a 1/4 cup so far. Its thick and has white things in it. Not much longer, I hope.
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